Love,anyone???

Yup,So I take off right from where i had left a few posts back..stuck with an aweful roomie who was obssesed with phone sex ,not being able to adjust in d bengaali crowd,completely friendless and bored in this totally sleepy city.So i packed my bags and took a week off to saddi dilli not wanting to return at all.But return i did,with a resolution that if things werent improving on their own i would have to do something surely.
Chucked out that slut of a roomate(right,after i caught her stealing my stuff!),made some new bengali frends who have been extremely sweet to me and now i can catch up bengaali quite well (shotti baaba!!) apart from that the most brilliant thing that happened was that i got a new roomie!!and guess wat??we clicked from day 1!tan tana!!yes i finally had someone to talk to when i went back from office,i finally had that connection ,i finally had someone to do all the masti with (i tried tequila!!yay!!)and the best thing was she introduced me to this totally awesome group she had in office which mainly consisted of delhites.. so i started hanging around with the group...now now now..now comes the twist!right as i always say my life can never be void of any twists and turns ..so this guy in the group took a liking to me...hmm lets call him A.quite ok till now naa..thats what i thought too...we started talking on the office messenger..meeting for lunches (with the whole group)..d guy seemed to be nice ...i had just begun to give him a serious thought ..just when i thot of telling me roomie all this guess what happens!!she comes up to me one day and shes like can i tell u a secret?i m like yeah..sure...and shes like "i like A!!!!" for a second i dint know how to react!i was left gaping..and then she told me her whole story of how she was so totally in lov with him since the day she joined this firm and what a great guy he was and how she had missed him when she went to UK and how she totally adored even d smallest attentions he got from him...man!!
my mind was just thinking one thing "we both cant like the same guy!!!"but then i thot over it this gurl was so damn serious for this guy while i was just making up my mind...but dint i love all the attention he gave me??dint i suddenly love dressing up for office ??the way my face lit up with a smile every time he msgd me between work??or the way he generally cared??
the sad thign was i hadnt told her anything about my increasing interactionw ith this guy..and the sadder thing was she failed to notice the attention he gave me whenever we were together ina grp..and the saddest thing was she used to come n share with me everytime she thot A gave her some attention!!and then i would feel so damn guilty!!i dint know what to do...whether to go away from the scene completely ..or to keep talking to the guy normally...but then wudnt i be encouraging him??but i loooooved d way he cared...and i cud see it so clearly he wasnt int in my roomie at all...or shud i just tell A that my roomie was totally latoo on him..love has eluded me before..in the most tragic way one can think of...i dint want to let go of it now...and yet i cudnt be selfish...my roomie is the reason i got some life in cal..shes d one who introduced me to the grp..to the guy...man!!for once gawd!!stop making my life look like some bollywood movie!
anyway i took the step i found so hard to take..i started withdrawing..stopped comin on messenger..or hanging around with the grp...but it was soooo hard!but then i knew it was rite too...ok so i tried..but i kind of failed..i cudnt really maintain the distance bw me and A...and guess what..he came and proposed..rite...i shud have been freaking happy ..but all i cud think of wat was going to tell her???
hmmm thrs so much more i gotta rite...what happend thereafter..and wats finally happening now...i guess ill continue in the next post!